Sketches of Life: Nitemares

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Nitemares

Did you ever feel like having bags of coins in your pockets weighing you down...
feel so heavy that you can hardly breath..and kind of frustrating?

That's just how I felt...last nite as I went to bed with my heavy body..heavy minded..heavy heart..

I prayed to God to take away all these burden from you and help me to learn to pass all my burdens to Him..cuz many of the time after we pray...we naturally took back those burdens which somehow we have a connection to it..unwilling to trust God to handle all these for us..Its a lesson that we all still have to learn..funny isn't it..

As mentioned..I had nitemares..
it just went on and on..
events after events...
In my dream..I dream of my school days buddy (one of my so-call sister in my group) having seen her for years..
then I dream of my best friend Joyce...my buddy Teo and his friends who we used to hang out together years back..
Then..there was I think Cindy..my new friend..friend of Joyce too..
And a little girl who keep clinging to me...
and someone who is demon possessed...

wow..The dream is soo soo complicated..
so much events..no time to breath..
I guess it somehow depict the complexity inside me..at this moment..
so much to handle..and manage..
so much emotions...
so much stress...

My head is so heavy...so is my body..
I get easily frustrated....at this point of time..
no patient..
so..better to stay at home..and rest today (my off day) and tomorrow is Vesak Day-Public Holiday..

Oh dear..why am I feeling so frustrated lack of patient...
probably its also my once-a-month's friend visiting..haha..

Having ulcers in my mouth..pimples..aching body..and down with cold..
I sound terrible right now ..isn't it..
ya..God is gracious..gave me just enough time for me to rest to recover over these two days..

But listening to hymns helps..to ease my frustration..brings me peace..that's why I changed the music here to soothing hymns..

Have a wonderful holidays you guys..

Oh and my silly hp bill is costing me $150 for last month..never so much..that "stupid" Gees plan is costing a bomb..out of don't know where..I called them up last nite to told them about my upset..and they said will get back to me today..
will call them now..dun like this feeling of hanging in the air..wants to settle it once and for all...
Oh boy oh boy!

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Final Destination of Everyone

Money often deceive us, leading us to forget we will die some day. Poor people will die, Rich people will also die.
In the bible, it says to the Rich, today your life will be taken from you, what will happen to the riches you have stored up for yourself.
So be Wise- store up for yourself treasures in heaven which never rot as it has eternal value.
Our stay in this world is but only max. hundred over years..
but compare to life in eternity after death, what seems long here is but only a grain in heaven.

My Zodiac

Angeline's Zodiac Sign - TAURUS

9 may Taureans never slap or sting. Rather, they creep up on you, affect you deeply and leave their indelible impression on your soul. Think of Taurus as a long sensual kiss. A huge tender bear hug. Or an eiderdown on a cold alpine night. Taureans are warm (but sometimes stodgy) customers.

Many Taureans work with their hands. Even if a Taurus is a computer expert and seems more cerebral than manual, nine times out of ten there is a hidden craft or hobby lurking behind the scenes. Taureans enjoy forging beautiful things from natural materials. In fact, they are attracted to all sorts of beauty. Music thrills them. Flowers enchant them. The countryside seduces them. And art is their natural habitat.

Taureans are forever building their own workshops and renovating barns and old churches. They are not only home-loving, they like to get their hands into the cement and slather on the plaster, if only for the tangible joy of playing in the mud.

Taureans do not take kindly to sudden change. They like to be wherever they are supposed to be when it is time to be there. Taureans readily adjust to routine and for that reason make fabulous employees. Precipitous and unexpected events requiring flexibility and resilience may cause Taureans to dig in their hooves and refuse to budge. Bulls are obstinate and determined to hold their ground. It is wiser not to try to talk Taurus out of a sulk. Just let him paw the earth and snort and seethe on his own. Take a tranquilizer and a walk. Soon, when the inevitable becomes blatantly inevitable, Taurus will budge of his own accord, come out of his sulk and go with the flow.

Sensuality belongs to Taurus. Wherever there is pleasure you will find a Taurean plunk in the middle of it all. They love to bask in the "good life." Taureans cannot resist the tug of the opposite sex. When an attractive newcomer arrives on the scene, count on Taurus to see to it that the outsiders have a drink, are made comfortable and have slipped Taurus a telephone number or two.

Taureans are amorous and romantic without being flighty or maudlin. They are tender and don't mind public displays of affection. Love and all of its expressions appeal to the Bull. Taureans can be counted on to stray a bit where sex is concerned, but they never flaunt their infidelities and usually avoid sticky extracurricular entanglements. If you love a Taurus, feed him.