Sketches of Life: Gone with the wind..

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Gone with the wind..

First step of loving myself is to create a comfy and cozy environment to stay in.
After few hours of hard work..finally all is done..
Threw away lots of stuff which had past memories in them...
Tho frankly speaking looking at those stuffs..I did hesitate for a while and then tell myself..I must do it..and I did..
Was a little worked up when Mum started to flip the rubbish bag saying can donate those stuff which is in good condition to the charity (which I intend to threw away)...
Partially I was afraid she will see those stuff and start questioning..
and so I told her sternly..DO NOT PICK IT UP THOSE I THREW AWAY..THEY ARE MEANT TO BE THROWN AWAY. I guess she got my message and left the balance untouched.

Certain things even if I used to treasure them alot..now no longer has that value/meaning of keeping them anymore..left only some important stuff which I might have to return to him maybe sometime later.
How strange... its like shares..the value just fluctuate that quickly..
Value of the things are not weight by the cost or how much it is..rather its weight by the heart and sincerity in them.

Sweet memories are left in the past as Angeline proceed on with her new life..its not easy..require lots of determination..Tho every now and then..past memories came in..happy memories came in..but recalling his recent words.. I told myself..that's it. No more dwelling in the past..

I discover lots of precious things when I packed my room too..
Nice happy pics I took with my students while I was teaching years back..
Will add in the pics tomorrow after I scan them at work.
Those were the happy times..
Oh how I missed those times..
A friend asked me..why then dun u go back teaching..
I told her..
Things change..
Even if I go back teaching..
Environment, people and many things will no longer be the same..
Its like chemistry..
You need all the right amount of substance to make things happen..
I guess its the same as love too..

Thus the only way to find back the cheerful me.. is to be in love..
Don't u agree..when someone is in love..she/he will smile the sweetest esp during their honeymoon period..
But dun get me wrong...
When I say in love means... To be in love with God and myself..
Eventually..these are the two who will never leave us or forsake us..despite the changes we have in us..

I told God..God I am still thankful and grateful for you sending him into my life..
its never a regret..God often send me lots of angels at different times..
he is one of them..
I guess..angels are there to help us and not to be in love with us...
hee...

Thinking this way...I felt relieve and happy...
GAMBATTE ANGELINE SAN!

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Final Destination of Everyone

Money often deceive us, leading us to forget we will die some day. Poor people will die, Rich people will also die.
In the bible, it says to the Rich, today your life will be taken from you, what will happen to the riches you have stored up for yourself.
So be Wise- store up for yourself treasures in heaven which never rot as it has eternal value.
Our stay in this world is but only max. hundred over years..
but compare to life in eternity after death, what seems long here is but only a grain in heaven.

My Zodiac

Angeline's Zodiac Sign - TAURUS

9 may Taureans never slap or sting. Rather, they creep up on you, affect you deeply and leave their indelible impression on your soul. Think of Taurus as a long sensual kiss. A huge tender bear hug. Or an eiderdown on a cold alpine night. Taureans are warm (but sometimes stodgy) customers.

Many Taureans work with their hands. Even if a Taurus is a computer expert and seems more cerebral than manual, nine times out of ten there is a hidden craft or hobby lurking behind the scenes. Taureans enjoy forging beautiful things from natural materials. In fact, they are attracted to all sorts of beauty. Music thrills them. Flowers enchant them. The countryside seduces them. And art is their natural habitat.

Taureans are forever building their own workshops and renovating barns and old churches. They are not only home-loving, they like to get their hands into the cement and slather on the plaster, if only for the tangible joy of playing in the mud.

Taureans do not take kindly to sudden change. They like to be wherever they are supposed to be when it is time to be there. Taureans readily adjust to routine and for that reason make fabulous employees. Precipitous and unexpected events requiring flexibility and resilience may cause Taureans to dig in their hooves and refuse to budge. Bulls are obstinate and determined to hold their ground. It is wiser not to try to talk Taurus out of a sulk. Just let him paw the earth and snort and seethe on his own. Take a tranquilizer and a walk. Soon, when the inevitable becomes blatantly inevitable, Taurus will budge of his own accord, come out of his sulk and go with the flow.

Sensuality belongs to Taurus. Wherever there is pleasure you will find a Taurean plunk in the middle of it all. They love to bask in the "good life." Taureans cannot resist the tug of the opposite sex. When an attractive newcomer arrives on the scene, count on Taurus to see to it that the outsiders have a drink, are made comfortable and have slipped Taurus a telephone number or two.

Taureans are amorous and romantic without being flighty or maudlin. They are tender and don't mind public displays of affection. Love and all of its expressions appeal to the Bull. Taureans can be counted on to stray a bit where sex is concerned, but they never flaunt their infidelities and usually avoid sticky extracurricular entanglements. If you love a Taurus, feed him.