Sketches of Life: The Brand new Me!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

The Brand new Me!

Hey

guess what? What could be the BEST NEWS IN THIS WHOLEEEEEEEEE WIDE WORLD THAN "I FOUND MYSELF!"

This is a precious lesson which i just learnt and wanna share with u.

Now its the beginning of the new ME!!!! Time for celebration!!!! Cheers!!!!

God sent me an angel just now....and suddenly it enlighten me..

No wonder I made him feel so uncomfortable..
Let me explain where goes wrong..

I never realised that I was attached to him rather than loving him...which I thought I was... Attachment is like not that u love that thing but rather...u wanna have that thing and u want it so bad that u attached ur feelings to it..and once u felt that the thing doesn't belongs to u anymore..U felt the sense of lost..thus couldn't feel the happiness for that person whom u r attached to...when he finds someone else ..its as if someone has snatch it away from u. Thus that's when jealous comes in. That attachment also brings about the "force" which wasn't intended to..and sub-consciously was being carried out even not knowing in what way this "force" was present. Like my constant reply on his blog without knowing its way tooo much..or my repetition of the past is way tooo much.. I become relying on him..revolving too much around him...I wasn't living for myself..its like I am like a something that's fixed to him so that when he move I move..relying way too much on him to feel happy, sad or whatever. Oh..that feeling must be really tough and uncomfortable for him having something that kind of stick to him huh..

I didn't realized that until an outsider (who doesn't really know me told me this). Cuz normally u listen to people who are not too close to u..like u normally wont listen to family members but to ur friends outside or so..Its human nature.

That was my blind spot. And now I realized ..ya..I haven't been a positive person at all..thinking that I was all the time..tho..
Hmm.. Main reason is that I do not know how to love myself...and live for myself.. I am always trying to please and live for others..

He has been telling me this too..but it didn't really get into my brain till just now. I hear but I never understand..thinking that loving oneself is a selfish act.

One must love herself then can others starts to love u..right?
Only when u love urself..u can be really happy and be a happy person..
Happy person attracts people to them...A stressful and sad person turn people away from them.

Wow..U know what...???
From this moment now...I am no more the old me...
Tho I dun really know how to love myself or live for myself..but..I will going to try..no try no gain right..

Suddenly feel so light to release that attachment I fixed onto him or things around me.
From now on I wanna live for myself..and love myself. Everything I will think what Angeline wants first and what will make Angeline happy first..not what will make others happy first.

From the new Angeline

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Final Destination of Everyone

Money often deceive us, leading us to forget we will die some day. Poor people will die, Rich people will also die.
In the bible, it says to the Rich, today your life will be taken from you, what will happen to the riches you have stored up for yourself.
So be Wise- store up for yourself treasures in heaven which never rot as it has eternal value.
Our stay in this world is but only max. hundred over years..
but compare to life in eternity after death, what seems long here is but only a grain in heaven.

My Zodiac

Angeline's Zodiac Sign - TAURUS

9 may Taureans never slap or sting. Rather, they creep up on you, affect you deeply and leave their indelible impression on your soul. Think of Taurus as a long sensual kiss. A huge tender bear hug. Or an eiderdown on a cold alpine night. Taureans are warm (but sometimes stodgy) customers.

Many Taureans work with their hands. Even if a Taurus is a computer expert and seems more cerebral than manual, nine times out of ten there is a hidden craft or hobby lurking behind the scenes. Taureans enjoy forging beautiful things from natural materials. In fact, they are attracted to all sorts of beauty. Music thrills them. Flowers enchant them. The countryside seduces them. And art is their natural habitat.

Taureans are forever building their own workshops and renovating barns and old churches. They are not only home-loving, they like to get their hands into the cement and slather on the plaster, if only for the tangible joy of playing in the mud.

Taureans do not take kindly to sudden change. They like to be wherever they are supposed to be when it is time to be there. Taureans readily adjust to routine and for that reason make fabulous employees. Precipitous and unexpected events requiring flexibility and resilience may cause Taureans to dig in their hooves and refuse to budge. Bulls are obstinate and determined to hold their ground. It is wiser not to try to talk Taurus out of a sulk. Just let him paw the earth and snort and seethe on his own. Take a tranquilizer and a walk. Soon, when the inevitable becomes blatantly inevitable, Taurus will budge of his own accord, come out of his sulk and go with the flow.

Sensuality belongs to Taurus. Wherever there is pleasure you will find a Taurean plunk in the middle of it all. They love to bask in the "good life." Taureans cannot resist the tug of the opposite sex. When an attractive newcomer arrives on the scene, count on Taurus to see to it that the outsiders have a drink, are made comfortable and have slipped Taurus a telephone number or two.

Taureans are amorous and romantic without being flighty or maudlin. They are tender and don't mind public displays of affection. Love and all of its expressions appeal to the Bull. Taureans can be counted on to stray a bit where sex is concerned, but they never flaunt their infidelities and usually avoid sticky extracurricular entanglements. If you love a Taurus, feed him.