Sketches of Life: Learning is a progression

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Learning is a progression

Hi..

like to share this conclusion of mine with you..

Learning is a progression. At different stage, one learns and reacts differently even when facing the same questions in life.

God is very humorous.
After sharing my theory with you and others about finding my self value & loving myself, God actually put me thru a test to see if I can apply what I learnt into my life. Knowing that the man I loved is attached is the greatest test He gave me.

I struggled hard trying to find a balance for both my emotion & theory so as to apply in my practical life.
1st reaction was the letter my first letter I wrote to him which is filled with sadness and sense of failure yet wishing him well.

But, I wasn't happy with my 1st reaction & started praying and asking for directions again. Then decided to meet Mr Sunshine Dan last nite,to share his sunshine smile with me, so I will become stronger. You may ask why not your bestfriend.
Reason as mentioned before, your bestfriend knows you too well which will only makes you feel weaker and cries more as she feels the pain you are going thru and cries with you.
At this point of time, I dun want to be emotional, but rationale. To clear my mind and sort out my thots in the SUN.

Before meeting Mr Sunshine, I read thru my blog which I wrote about the new me who has found the secret to happiness which is to love myself, thru knowing how precious I am.

After 'sun-tanning' with Mr SunShine smiling right at my face...and after sorting out my thots....

Conclusion:
I have completely let go of him. So dun feel worry for me or anything okie esp my dearest Joyce. :)

God taught me precious lesson & in this precious lesson,
I learnt that:

1) Its all a matter of Choice.

2) I made my choice to love him with all my heart, my mind and everything.
& He made his choice to love someone else and not me.

3) As its all a matter of Choice.I will not lost my value just becuz he chose someone else.

A piece of GOLD will always be a piece of GOLD. I will not become a rock just becuz someone say I am a rock or treat me like a rock. (This is just an illustration).

My point is, he has his choice and I have mine.
Choices to make ourselves happy.
We have good and happy times together. That was choices we made in the past.
Choices to create good memories.
Choices with no regret, knowing we did it becuz it makes us happy and satisfy at that point of time.

Thus, since he made a choice now that he is gonna spend his happy moments with another person, its his right. Everyone has the right to live and make the choice they want. No one has the right to another's life even if they are couples or husband and wife. We are all responsible for ourselves and no one else.

Thus, I am not longer affect by him having a girlfriend or even marry. Becuz its his life. Its his choice. It will not affect me and as I say, will not cuz me to become less valuable.

People make choices in their everyday life. It doesn't mean that those who are not chosen are of lesser value. Cuz we are made differently BUT with the same value-PRICELESS by God.

I am the one to decide and make the choice, what my happiness is to be.
My happiness lays in my hand and in God's hand and no others.

And since I already know my value, no matter what others say or do to me, I am valuable & priceless, most precious that God exchange for my life by giving up His Son Jesus to die on my behalf on the Cross. My life is as precious as Jesus. God loves me as much.

Thus knowing how much I weight in God's heart, what others think will no longer affect me. Shares or stocks may fluctuate but You & Me NEVER.
CUZ WE ARE NOT MEASURE BY WHAT THIS WORLD MEASURES.
GOD SEES THE HEART AND NOT AS MEN SEE.

Men sees the outlook and talents and so on..
but God sees the heart.
Knowing my precious value, my heart is filled with thanksgiving and love.

I love myself and my life.
And since we are all created by God, no one is better than another, even when another seems to get what he/she wants.
We are all the same and precious in the eyes of God.
Thus, becuz I love myself, I love him and his girlfriend too.
I love everyone who is created by God and purchased by the precious blood of Jesus Christ.

Remember, I once mention, true happiness is not how much you gain but how BIG is your heart!

Take care,
God loves you & I love you too!
Always,

With eternal love in Christ,
Angeline

p.s. The above portion is abstract from my 2nd letter to him a moment ago.

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Final Destination of Everyone

Money often deceive us, leading us to forget we will die some day. Poor people will die, Rich people will also die.
In the bible, it says to the Rich, today your life will be taken from you, what will happen to the riches you have stored up for yourself.
So be Wise- store up for yourself treasures in heaven which never rot as it has eternal value.
Our stay in this world is but only max. hundred over years..
but compare to life in eternity after death, what seems long here is but only a grain in heaven.

My Zodiac

Angeline's Zodiac Sign - TAURUS

9 may Taureans never slap or sting. Rather, they creep up on you, affect you deeply and leave their indelible impression on your soul. Think of Taurus as a long sensual kiss. A huge tender bear hug. Or an eiderdown on a cold alpine night. Taureans are warm (but sometimes stodgy) customers.

Many Taureans work with their hands. Even if a Taurus is a computer expert and seems more cerebral than manual, nine times out of ten there is a hidden craft or hobby lurking behind the scenes. Taureans enjoy forging beautiful things from natural materials. In fact, they are attracted to all sorts of beauty. Music thrills them. Flowers enchant them. The countryside seduces them. And art is their natural habitat.

Taureans are forever building their own workshops and renovating barns and old churches. They are not only home-loving, they like to get their hands into the cement and slather on the plaster, if only for the tangible joy of playing in the mud.

Taureans do not take kindly to sudden change. They like to be wherever they are supposed to be when it is time to be there. Taureans readily adjust to routine and for that reason make fabulous employees. Precipitous and unexpected events requiring flexibility and resilience may cause Taureans to dig in their hooves and refuse to budge. Bulls are obstinate and determined to hold their ground. It is wiser not to try to talk Taurus out of a sulk. Just let him paw the earth and snort and seethe on his own. Take a tranquilizer and a walk. Soon, when the inevitable becomes blatantly inevitable, Taurus will budge of his own accord, come out of his sulk and go with the flow.

Sensuality belongs to Taurus. Wherever there is pleasure you will find a Taurean plunk in the middle of it all. They love to bask in the "good life." Taureans cannot resist the tug of the opposite sex. When an attractive newcomer arrives on the scene, count on Taurus to see to it that the outsiders have a drink, are made comfortable and have slipped Taurus a telephone number or two.

Taureans are amorous and romantic without being flighty or maudlin. They are tender and don't mind public displays of affection. Love and all of its expressions appeal to the Bull. Taureans can be counted on to stray a bit where sex is concerned, but they never flaunt their infidelities and usually avoid sticky extracurricular entanglements. If you love a Taurus, feed him.