GOD WILL MAKE A WAY..

I was really disappointed receiving the letter from UNISIM that I did not get in to the course I applied for due to overwhelming responses..

In fact even if I were to get in...I have to worry about having to knock off at 6.30pm and how to rush from Clarke Quay to Clementi by 7pm.
And how to drag my tired body all the way back from that out of the place campus all the way back to the other side of Singapore...
esp if I were to take cab home I think it will surely cost me not less than $20 each time esp with the taxi fare increasing again next week..

I was really afraid that if I can't get into Uni to study degree I will disappoint my parents and my family who were looking forward to this day for sooo long...
Thus when I received the bad news...my heart sunk..

Just then...My elder bro told me to try out other well known Uni like PSB or MDIS for their degree course...I went to applied just a week or two ago...
Indeed Men is short sighted..without faith..all seems hopeless and no way to go...
Only God in Heaven sees and plans, giving only the Best to His children.

I am blessed to have a supportive family...
And I am even blessed to have LORD Jesus as my Father in Heaven..who loves me so much and giving me as He promised only the Best.

Like this song says "God will make a way..when there seems to be no way...He works in ways..we cannot see...He will make a way for me..."



Today..I wanna share a good news with you...
I have got in to University of Bradford U.K. - one of the Top Uni which is Internationally recognised after my Elder Brother did a research and forwarded me for reference...

I went to apply for Bachelor of Science (Hons) in Marketing in University Of Bradford, U.K. from MDIS about a week ago..
I was told to wait about 3 weeks and now I have got my Letter of Offer..isn't this great?
I am so happy and excited..
Bill said that my Christmas is starting early..hahaha..
ya he is right...
God is the first one who gave me my Christmas present...
A wonderful present..
Muck..Thank U God..

I am starting my course on 25 March 2008.
Hmm..but venue...
I thot I was told should be in Dhoby Ghaut just a station away from my office..
but now...Stirling Road????
near Queenstown I guess...
Hopefully they will change it to back to Dhoby Ghaut..

Anyway..really happy that I can finally get myself busy into studying and preparing myself for a brighter future...
Will definitely put in my BEST...
esp when so many people are supporting me ..be in moral or prayer or financial support...

I won't allow myself to let anyone down...Don't worry..

Indeed God will only give us what is the Best for us...even if we could not see and feels sad that He took some of the things/ or people whom we think is the Best for us..which wasn't..Cuz God only wants His Children to have the Best.
He took away so as to give us what is Best!

Thank You Father in Heaven..
Like this case...I will also submit my future life partner and relationship into Your hand as well..and not to get too sad and disappointed when what I thot was the best was not the Best which You have for me..
Give me the same patient and faith to wait upon you for the right time and the right person..
meanwhile...All the Best Angeline in your study and future..!!!

Yes!!! Way to Go..2008...Here I come!!!!

Muck....Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

Two men in the house

Today I was touched by two men in the house.
1st my dad..
this morning..its his first attempt to wash clothes...using washing machine..
He came knocking my door this morning asking me how to switch on the washing machine.
I taught him and taught him how to pour in detergent to wash his clothes..
1st time in his entire 60 years..he is taking initiative to wash some clothes...
Really touched...
Probably becuz Mum is not around, she is baby-sitting at my elder brother house..
me and sister is working till very late and tired and not so well recently.
I am indeed very touched and thankful to God..changing my dad..
who says old people can't change or learn?
My dad picks up English at the age of 60 and went to take his taxi lics exam in English..tho during then I had to translate every single English into Chinese for him and teach him how to pronounce..

2nd, my little brother..also staying at my elder brother's place cuz now he is helping out in the same Hospital as my elder brother while waiting to go for his NS next month.

After not seeing him for one week..I missed him..
saw him in church today with my mum..
he said he is coming home this evening..
he sees that I wasn't too well...
asking if I had my dinner which I told him its okie I can cook campbell soup to drink.
He then said no leh..he will cook instant noodles for me..
First time in my life ...my little brother is telling me he wanna cook for me to eat.
I felt so warm hearted..
I told him its okie..and I cooked it myself to eat..
This little boy has grown up into a fine young man now...
I can remember all the little details when he was young and very close to me...
I love my family and my little brother..
very good boy and sensible..
Too bad his sister has not keep in touch or refuse to keep in touch with us.

My little brother is 18 this year..I am 33. Very big age gap rite..
but my family is very close...we love each other very much..
We have been thru thicks and thins together...
we suffer and enjoy moments together...
The more difficulties in life we met....the stronger our bonds become...
That's family...

I am blessed indeed...

I thank God for all these..Thank U Father in Heaven.
I love You Father In Heaven and thank U for loving me...
Amen.

I love chilling out with friends..

Ask me what is my hobby..
I love to spend time chilling out with friends to relax esp after a long busy day or week...
It need not be wine or beer...
I love to sit and enjoy a cup of coffee at Starbucks or Coffee Bean with a friend or two or even by myself esp on my off day.
Enjoying a piece of cheese cake..if possible..
Its the world's most enjoyable thing to do......

Its not hard to find me in one of the cafe on my off day...by myself..siting back relaxing...watching the passing crowds and observing them...
Gathering Sketches of Life
Last evening after dinner at Ajisen, I helped Ben to shop around for Christmas presents. He ended up buying things for himself..hahaha..
After which the shops are almost closed..we went to Starbucks for coffee and Cakes.

Ben is a nice brother..He is also a gentleman...
If only most guys can be like him, that will be good.
He takes initiatives to do many little things...
Haha.. I am stating the fact Ben..not just praising you...
Anyway..I have a good time hanging out with this 'brother'.

I love Starbucks as compared to CoffeeBean..cuz only Starbucks has my favourite ICE TALL HAZELNUT LATTE...and nice cheese cake..
I am a devoted and loyal person.
Once I fall in love with some thing or some one or a job...
I will be devoted to it all the way..
My heart will not change until certain 'bad' things happened.

That's what my schoolmates wrote about me in my Sec School Autograph book..

I used to be in NPCC (National Police Cadet Corp) in my school days...
Very devoted in my Uniform group..
I always urge my friends to attend parades and footdrill whenever there is any..
Some said I am crazy.. I love Footdrills...
Everyone says I am very devoted.
I took this kind of devotion in my Christianity belief..
in my job... A friend once told me that he likes the passions I have in my job.
Same thing goes with my relationship..
Once I fell for someone or has given my heart to someone...It takes years to get over it. (For those who love Love Stories..I will share with you my first heart-beating love- puppy love another time..just for entertainment..)

Oops...back to where I was....
I told Ben that I love Starbucks but my best friend Joyce love CoffeeBean...thus we 'can' only go Starbucks when there is no Coffeebean around..when I am with her.
But one thing Joyce like about Starbucks is the Ugly Chicken Curry Puff..
really ugly looking but yummy...
So...Conclusion: Starbucks is still Better...Hee...Angie's own conclusion..hahaha..

A romantic place..

Just few days ago, after our dinner (Seafood) at Changi Village..near the jetty..My friends and I drove off to another place for a drink.

The Seafood at Lee Hup Lee Seafood at the Changi Village near to the jetty is really nice except the vegetable..The Chillies Crab is Huge and yummy...

After dinner, Mr Neighbour suggested to go elsewhere for a drink..
we went to the Hotel lounge nearby to check it out...
But it doesn't appeal to us..thus Mr Neighbour Tony brought us to a place which somehow brought back my past sweet memories...
a romantic place..
Strange thing is..whenever I go there...be it years ago..or that nite..it just happens to rain..tho it wasn't pouring..

After a while's ride, we reached The Yacht Club near Safara Chalet..
A place of nice romantic ambience..
This place changed ..
One thing never change is the attractive night scenary..
The beautiful calming sea...The huge sky above it..filled with stars twinkling in the sky...There, you can see aeroplane fly really near you...
it kind of reminded me if this is the place which a friend recently said that he found a nice and quiet place to eat...a place where he can see the planes..and its at the other end of Singapore..

Few years back..one of my EX brought me there while we were dating...
strolling under the sky filled with stars and beside the sea..isn't it romantic..
Things changed quite a bit tho.. but as we went to the 2nd level...we see the entire scenery even clearer...
We wanted to stay outside the balcony to enjoy this beautiful nite scenery and chill out but the rain didn't stop..and the seats were wet...there is no really proper shelter to shelter us from the rain out there..

No choice..we decided to go in to drink, sing karaoke and play pool..

Me after singing 4 songs straight..started to lose my voice..cuz haven't being singing karaoke for a long long time...Lost my skill already..
cuz singing karaoke and hymns/christian songs are very different techniques..

However, that place didn't keep us long...
we headed off to Beach Cabana - nice cozy pub by East Coast beach for our 3rd round..

Beach Cabana is a nice cozy place... for people to sit back...enjoy the sea breeze..chill out with friends...
We order a bottle of white wine and enjoyed the rest of the nite there...
The music they play are some of our favourite songs..
You can even do Song Dedication too..

Good times always flies....
Tho dun feel like going home....
but my eyes and my body is telling me "Girl..its bed time..gotta work tomorrow.."
And so...I told them its time for us to head back...I need to work tomorrow..
Looking at the time...
WOw..its 2am in the morning...

Mr Neighbour sent me back..of cuz since he is my neighbour..
We didn't drink much that nite..
just one beer at Yacht Club and a glass of wine at Beach Cabana.

We had a great time!
Thanks guys for your treat...

Dare to be different

Lately I noticed a pattern forming around me, which set me thinking...

When everybody is doing something different from you which left you alone by yourself..is it better to stay as who you are or to join in the company?

My answer is: Stay true to myself & Be who I am.

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What happened was...
recently...I noticed that be it when I was clubbing with my buddies and clubbing friends..or with a group of friends/ design classmates who smokes...
since the govt started the non-smoking system in clubs and many areas...
Tho the air is fresher..but..
I was often left alone at the table while everyone went off smoke together and even friend who does not smoke will somehow went out with them to accompany them outside..leaving me all alone with their bags..or siting at the table all by myself..

Tho at the moment..I was feeling really 'outcasted' or lonely...and it set me thinking....
After thinking to myself..this is my conclusion...
I know who I am..and what my stand is.. thus..to stand up my testimony as a christian...I dare to be different.

In the same case last nite when I was with a group of friends chilling out and they suddenly asked for poker and start playing..but I made my stand that I dun touch poker..as Poker is often associated with the image of gambling, be it that you play with or without money..I dun comments on what others do..but since I make it a point not to touch poker thus..I will not even if I am the odd one out..

There is nothing wrong with games..
many doesn't understand why christian cannot gamble, or buy 4D.
All these is not written in the bible..
but..the bible teaches that we should not have greed in us.
Greed is sin. When one greed for something which doesn't belongs to us, this greed will soon take control of us making us urge for more and more..

Bible teaches us as Christian to be clear minded at all times..be in self-control.
That's why people who buys 4D will only continue to buy, even knowing that most of the time they lost..but just hoping that one day they might just be lucky enough to win. To seriously think about it like the chinese saying 十赌九输 which means out of ten times you gamble, 9 times you loss.

Just like drinking...I used to think Christian cannot drink..but as I get to look deeper into the teaching..
The bible did not say that..
In the bible, Jesus even turned the water into wine in a wedding banquet..that's the first miracle He did..
But ** Bible mentioned about not to get drunk.
When one gets drunk..or drank too much..
the alcohol takes controls...thus the person lost his/her clear mind..
many times emotions takes control...
sinful desire takes over..
that's where bad things happened..
And another thing to take into consideration is TESTIMONY..

Thus as my personal point of view..
we can drink..and chill out with friends..
BUT..DON'T GET DRUNK..
And be careful with the surrounding where you are in..
you might get yourself into trouble even if you are not drunk and someone else around you is..So...Be careful..

God teach us to clear minded..let Holy Spirit take control of us..keep us clear minded...& learn to earn honest living and be contented.
Christians has Holy spirit dwell in them to protect them, comfort them and give them warning against sins.
But if we start to ignore all these warning from the Holy spirit...
sooner and later...we become deaf to God and become slave of this world.

Only with contentment can one be truly happy and satisfy.
Who on earth will even think that he/she has earn or win enough money...
everyone just want more and more..
its like our appetite..the more you eat the more you need to eat and wanna eat. That's how people get fatter and fatter.

Thus the key is: Be contented and thankful for all that you have. Do not greed for what that is not yours. Gambling is winning others hard earn money without putting in hard work.. tho many will have their form of debates..but this is just my point.
Know what you do..Be watchful & clear minded always.

DARE TO BE DIFFERENT & BE WHO I AM.DO & STAND UP FOR WHAT U THINK IS RIGHT NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS MIGHT DO OR SAY. Its always easy to say XXXX about others..it seems to be part of human's sinful nature.

Learn to respect others. Give advises...but...Do not enforce your thots on others. Everyone has their own freedom and need to be respected. Do not mingle with others affair when it doesn't involve you.
Be who you wanna be, do what you wanna do, say what you wanna say..as long as..you know..eventually...You are responsible for all these not others.

If after considering all these and you still think you wanna do it..by all means.. Its ur life. People can give u advise. Eventually good or bad..u r the one to decide & take up the consequence.
Right?

I am just a humble me...sharing my little thots and learning what I share in my little space here too...

Reflecting back

As I was having my facial just now..
Listening to a lady in the next room's conversation with the beautician, a thot came to me..
This lady is only 23 years old. She is a Caucasian. Married a Chinese family. Having 2-3 kids. Seems like a happy and blessed woman I think..

I was wondering that..imagining me getting married into a foreign country like her.. as long as I have a loving husband like her who loves me...I guess at that time when I looked back at my present state now in relationship...I would probably laugh it off..and think that I am very silly to dwell myself into this for so long.
Something which doesn't even worth of me to be so sad about for so long..esp when things just didn't worked out the way I hope or I planned too.

Someone made a presumption and suggest that I should look deeper into this..and learn the Good Lesson and appreciate this world, my friends and family..
I only agreed 1/4 of it because I am in fact working very hard focusing now on my career, further study, family and friends..and have always treasure and appreciate all these..for those who knows me well...(He probably doesn't read my blog I guess..)

Some times, people who you think knows you well..suddenly made such an assumption or sentence.. its kind of disappointing. I made that same mistake too! I am sorry. That's why I always emphasize that communication is important. We used to share about everything.

Well..time will tells..No need for debate.
However I agreed that God has the best plan for us.

This guy is probably NOT the Best for me..the Best has yet to come..esp after so much has happened..it makes me even sure of this and no longer have feelings for him.

I am very thankful that now I see a clearer pic, knowing that this just isn't the right man to commit myself to. Some times when we set ourselves too deep into something..we became blind and deaf to hints and facts..God who love us will give us only the BEST! Same thing, I am not the Best for him as well.

Me & him..will still be friends..like what I told my best friend last nite when she asked me this question. Friends are hard to find esp one who encourages you to be a better person.

I am giving him my blessing for his future as well. May the Lord be with you in everything you do.

One last thing to say before I bring this story btw us to a closure,
I appreciate & am thankful for the good times we had together, for things he has done for me, and always there for me.I learned valuable lessons & had become a healthier and better person.

Thank You ______ very much!

After all, only good sketches & concepts will be further develope into the final product/pic.

...The End...

Life is full of sketches & stories..
Each day is fresh page of sketches & stories, dun you agree?
Cheers Everyone!

Sandra's Blog

I love reading Sandra, my buddy's blog.
I knew Sandra since Sec One (in 1987)...wah..its 20years..
Time really flies...

Sandra and her hubby Peter has moved to Melbourne Australia.
Joyce and Me visited them and stayed with them for two weeks last year.
I should say..they are great host.
Never forget those wonderful time we had together.
Despite Sandra just gave birth to Eugene my godson (5weeks-she corrected me..) She brought us to shop around.

I admire Sandra and Peter. Its not easy to live alone in a foreign country. But God is with them & their little boy, Eugene.

Read in their blogs about those wonderful friends they made and how they help each other and enjoy wonderful time and blessing together..is really heart warming.

Little Eugene has started to say single words like Ball, Dogs. And he is crazy about Elmo now..hahaha..

Each time I read Sandra's blog, I feel as if I am with them right now..Oooh how I missed them.. I must quickly change a job..earn more $$$ and allows me to travel and visit them as and when i want or missed them..



This is taken during Eugene's recently 1st birthday.



Too bad ganma (Me) cannot be there.

Happy Belated Birthday Eugene! Hahaha.. Merry Christmas!!!

Angeline (E.T Godma)

Mistake in my blog

Today two people talked to me regarding my blog.

One of which I made a terrible mistake. Sometimes what the mind think, the hand type otherwise.

Really sorry.

Blog is a diary which one used to express his/her thots. Thus if there should be any query the best person to ask is the one who wrote it, like my friend who actually took the effort to ring me up and check with me. I am very thankful about that.

People are made differently. They think differently. My blog only express my own perspective of things which might not even seems rite to some. Its just a general sharing of my life experience so as to act as a reference.

Gastrics hits at 4am

My gastric strikes me at 4am this morning..
feeling in pain and cold...
I changed into long pants and wore my socks and put on a jacket. Off the fan..
took my gastric medicine and curled up half sitting and laying with the quilt over me.

It took 2-3 hours for medicine to take effect. By then I was way too exhausted dozed off to sleep..
Missed my working wake up time..
Decided I should go see doctor instead..cuz actually wanted to go see doctor only at nite after work...I think can't drag any longer...

First thing that came to my mind when I was in pain 4am this morning was not myself.
I prayed for my baby niece...I scare that I had spread the flu virus to her unknowingly sat nite when I babysit her in the hospital over nite. Pray that she will be fine. Thank God mother is there to look after her from today on at my brother's place..They were discharged yesterday. Today my elder brother has his exam..hope he does well as usual cuz he doesn't have time to rest and prepare.
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Went to Ler Clinic just a few block near my place. I love Dr. Ler, she is a lady doctor and I am more comfortable to be seen by woman.
Dr. Ler explained that our body produce less acid at nite and more in the morning.
How can I have attrack in the morning? What did I do? Did I skip my meals? Or I got upset and too stress up? I guess my answer was number two. And lack of rest.

Thank God my gastric medicine save me. Dr Ler said the medicine I have is very good. It cuts down the acid level. But its slow. She said my gastric is bad..cuz it strikes at nite..when its acid level should be lowest.
She said next time take Gelusil first as it acts fasters but not lasting.. then half an hour later eat my gastric medicine A-Famotidine (20mg).
She counted the number of tablets I left and ask me to be good girl and finish all in 4 days time. Eat 2 times a day. One tablet each time.
She then prescribe cold medication and cough medication for me..knowing I hate to suck those pills..She wanted to give my anti-biotic for my woman problem..but scare my gastric cannot take it. So she let me use cream instead.

She is very thotful. That's what I like about her. She will never let me buy extra medicine which I already have. And she always charge cheaper rate for low income working person. Very nice of her.

Time to rest.
Nite nite
pray that my boss and collegue won't be unhappy of me on MC again..(last time on MC i think is 3 months ago or what.)

I love Christmas!!!

December is Great!
Its my favourite month cuz its the month of Christmas...
I love the wonderful weather today..
Feels so cozy...the cold weather makes one feels Great and Happy!!!

Today, I finally put up the deco for our bookstore to make it more Christmas-like..
esp with the cold aircon in my bookstore..everyday is like winter...



I spent a total of 2 hours or so to put all on the deco by myself...
and I was all dressed in jacket and shawl and my winter shoes...
Playing Christmas Cds..
its hard to miss this wonderful feel of Christmas...


** Sorry pics taken not that good....but if you are in our store..you will feel great..hee...

Btw, our store started our extended hours today till 22 Dec 2007.

Mon-Fri: 10am to 7.30pm
Sat: 10am to 5.30pm
Sun & Public Holidays : Closed

Do pop by our store PATH SEEKERS LTD 探索者 at 17 New Bridge Road and give us some support...get yourself or your love ones a gift or books..esp now we are having Christmas sales from 10%- 50%.
We are located just opp Clarke Quay MRT exit E. Just cross the road to the opp white old shop house..its hard to miss us..There is a bus-stop just infront of our store..


Level One.

Christmas is the season when the whole world celebrate the birth of Our Lord Jesus Christ who was born for us 2000years ago so as to die for us on the cross to wash away our sins so that we can go to Heaven.

Christmas is a season of Love. The wonderful sacrificial love..of our God for us.
God is the first who gave us the first and the BEST present of all..
The wonderful gift of Salvation..thru His one and only Son Jesus Christ.
All we need to do is to believe in Jesus and accept Him as our saviour and confess our sins to Him and we can received this wonderful present.

I have got my present already..how about you?

Have a Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year Everyone..

As this year is ending...its time to look back and start counting our blessing for the entire year..and thank God all those Hiccups in our life or this year has gone..
At least what you had and have rite now and start giving thanks...knowing that be it seems good or bad..
Everything has the perfect will of God behind it.

I thank God for letting me having two years of wonderful times with the man I love.
Tho things changed but..I am still thankful cuz he has indeed make my life a better one since the day I knew him 2 Christmas ago. Well..since things never turn out the way I expected,its just taken as part of life lesson for me.

Those were the past. Everyone has past, don't you?
Tomorrow will always be better cuz we all learn as we fell each time, right?
Merry Christmas!!!

Sneeze..(oh...I am down with flu..)
Pray that I will be well soon..will see doctor tomorrow nite..
nite everyone.

Angeline..
p.s. Today an African guy (one of those African students from Uni nearby) asked me for my number..which I didn't gave him. He ask me why I dun give him say he miss me blah blah blah..I said if you wanna see me just come here..dun need to take my number.

I just dun want to give my number. He was disappointed and went off. I hope I didn't hurt him just having phobia and dun like guys who flirt around...seeing him flirt with another girl when they came over to print their stuff and he said just friends..ha..