Ups and Downs

The first thing Susan saw me that day she asked me a question "How is life?"
I paused a very looong while..couldnt answer her..
why? I can't say good..cuz that's a lie..There are Ups and Downs in my life..and very often..
i replied her "today is good." (smile).

As we sat down and talked..she said "hey gal, ur life really has lots of ups and downs and very frequently.." and I replied her "remember once a pastor said this: Life is like a life-line where u see beside a patient..if it goes ups and downs..it means u r alive..and if its straight..U R DEAD!" So I told her..its a good thing that I am still having ups and downs in life..it means i am alive.
All these ups and downs in life makes me stronger..I never grumble or blame God becuz I know its for my good..I have lots of lessons to learn.
Life is a never ending process of learning..till the day we met Lord..we still learns.

It reminds me of what Bill used to say to me "Angel, I am asking u a simple question. Are u happy? Why do you find it so difficult to answer? Its either u are or u are not. I am not asking about if what happen or if u do this are u happy..i am asking are u happy now. If u ask me Bill are u happy..I will tell u Sure I am happy."
Many times in life we cannot answer such a simple question when people ask us. Cuz Life is never that simple anymore. I used to answer rite away Yes I am happy..just like Bill..but now..I no longer know I am happy or not..But one thing I know for sure..if u ask me..are u happy about where u are going to after you leave this world..I will tell u Yes I am Happy..but as for life..hmm..
its really a difficult questions in life..
its not that I have many wants that cannot be fulfilled..rather..there are just too many upsets in life..
one can be happy now..but then someone just came in threw something right into ur face...or doubts ur ability without even understanding the entire situation..not showing their apprecation...how happy can one be?
Bill always say "No one is doing anything to u if u dun allow them to do so. To be happy or not depends on how U wanna feel." Bill is very successful and positive person...always there to give advise..to me ...sometimes I think..even if the heaven is to fall on him..he will be alright..yup..I wish I could be like him.
Many times he has to be the one to remind me about my faith in God..and how God wonderfully made us..and love us and we are all special and unique..He's spiritual state seems much much better than me and many of those who claim to be much holy. As the bible says "One can tell the tree but the fruit it bears."
If u think I am good..well...i still have a looooong way to go....
Thank God for NEVER forsaking me..and all the love and patients on me.
THANK U LORD FOR NEVER LETTING GO OF ME.

Points to ponder: Are U happy? How is life?