The Brand new Me!

Hey

guess what? What could be the BEST NEWS IN THIS WHOLEEEEEEEEE WIDE WORLD THAN "I FOUND MYSELF!"

This is a precious lesson which i just learnt and wanna share with u.

Now its the beginning of the new ME!!!! Time for celebration!!!! Cheers!!!!

God sent me an angel just now....and suddenly it enlighten me..

No wonder I made him feel so uncomfortable..
Let me explain where goes wrong..

I never realised that I was attached to him rather than loving him...which I thought I was... Attachment is like not that u love that thing but rather...u wanna have that thing and u want it so bad that u attached ur feelings to it..and once u felt that the thing doesn't belongs to u anymore..U felt the sense of lost..thus couldn't feel the happiness for that person whom u r attached to...when he finds someone else ..its as if someone has snatch it away from u. Thus that's when jealous comes in. That attachment also brings about the "force" which wasn't intended to..and sub-consciously was being carried out even not knowing in what way this "force" was present. Like my constant reply on his blog without knowing its way tooo much..or my repetition of the past is way tooo much.. I become relying on him..revolving too much around him...I wasn't living for myself..its like I am like a something that's fixed to him so that when he move I move..relying way too much on him to feel happy, sad or whatever. Oh..that feeling must be really tough and uncomfortable for him having something that kind of stick to him huh..

I didn't realized that until an outsider (who doesn't really know me told me this). Cuz normally u listen to people who are not too close to u..like u normally wont listen to family members but to ur friends outside or so..Its human nature.

That was my blind spot. And now I realized ..ya..I haven't been a positive person at all..thinking that I was all the time..tho..
Hmm.. Main reason is that I do not know how to love myself...and live for myself.. I am always trying to please and live for others..

He has been telling me this too..but it didn't really get into my brain till just now. I hear but I never understand..thinking that loving oneself is a selfish act.

One must love herself then can others starts to love u..right?
Only when u love urself..u can be really happy and be a happy person..
Happy person attracts people to them...A stressful and sad person turn people away from them.

Wow..U know what...???
From this moment now...I am no more the old me...
Tho I dun really know how to love myself or live for myself..but..I will going to try..no try no gain right..

Suddenly feel so light to release that attachment I fixed onto him or things around me.
From now on I wanna live for myself..and love myself. Everything I will think what Angeline wants first and what will make Angeline happy first..not what will make others happy first.

From the new Angeline